I dont know why but I have been thinking about high school a lot recently. So much so that I logged into this blog in hopes to find posts from high school. But it looks like I have deleted all of those posts. I really don't know why.
Don't you hate regret?
Why have I been thinking about high school? Not just that, but so many memories from different stages of my life have been on my mind lately. Is my life flashing slowly before my eyes? Am I slowly dying?
Jan 14th I went to my gyno. Been having some issues. She tested me for cervical cancer. My boyfriend was so fucked up on xanax that I didn't even tell him. The results came back negative. But for 3 days I was convincing myself, with help from google results (never google your symptoms) that I had stage 4 cancer and 2 years to live. I have all the symptoms of Cervical cancer.
Now that we ruled that one cancer out, we can start to rule out other cancers. I really thought it was cervical cancer. I know something is wrong inside my body. It is probably cancer of some kind. I am not excited to go back to the doctors. I decided to wait until March to see her again because I was to try to enjoy my birthday.
Am I slowly dying?
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